i watched a movie alone
it was a monday evening. first day of school.was suppose to watch a movie with a friend but something came up and i was alone.
well i had already planned to watch it alone, just that i saw my friend at school and she agreed to watch with me...but at the end of the day, back to square one.
so i was hesitating whether i should catch the movie alone or not, cos its kinda scary, and it was my first time. so happen, that night mum didn't cook, plus i was alone...and i really wanted to watch the movie. so, i just went ahead.
it was a stormy night (not pretending to be melodrama), it started to pour just as i reach cine.
so i bought myself subway sandwich for dinner, went up to level 4 to buy the tix. it was all monotonous and rather fast. i realise that when one is doing things alone, time seem to b on a standstill and after doing what had to be done, there's still plenty of time left.
so i had to wait for roughly 20 min before the show starts. luckily i had a book with me. i sat outside the theatre and tried to read while waiting for 6.55 pm. but i couldn't concentrate on the book. i just felt uncomfortable and really, rather sad. not self pity or anything, i just sat there with a heavy heart.
then after i've finally settled down in the cinema, hoping to watch some trailers, there was just a blank screen with boring music. i gathered that when there's not much of an audience, there's no trailers. which only adds on to my yucky feeling. but i wasn't the only one watching the movie alone. there were lik 3-4 others who were sitting alone. so much for a lonesome night.
the movie was good. watched as it is in heaven. and it was about 2 hours plus.
but after the show ended and i walked out of the theatre alone, that's when i felt really really alone. the feeling was so bad. i didn't know what to do. i was draggin my feet along orchard road which was gloomy and rather bare. it was just bad.
i felt like crying but there were no tears. i tried to do some self reflection but all i could think of was how lonely and cold i was.
i dunno whether that would be the last time i watch a movie alone. maybe to the rest who've done this before didn' t think it was all that bad. but, this is really quite an experience for me.
for a very long time i've always wondered what it's like watching a movie alone. now i know it's not the watching alone that's scary. it was the part where one have to walk in and out of the theatre alone that's frightening.
posted by pearlewurly @ 9/16/2005 11:51:00 pm
